Tears

Been crying all day. Been drinking as well. My baby is gone.

Lovingly remembering my dearest Vixen (September 1, 1998-December 20, 2011), born 16 years ago today

My dearest baby,

I miss you so much. I miss the everyday things you did, the everyday love. The days were always hard, and there were always problems, but they were good days because you were there. To wake up in the middle of the night to demand attention. To look at me from across the room, nodding your head because you were just glad to see me. To lick our feet every time you passed by. To just look at us from the stairs.

I love you, my baby, my Sensen, my Vickysensen, my Hunhun, my dearest. I so much want to be with you again. One day soon, hopefully.

You are always in my heart.

Missing

I miss my babies. I miss my babies so much. I wish I could just be with them again.

Remembering my baby Garpy (Dec. 29, 1982-Aug. 10, 1991) with love, today, the anniversary of his death

My dearest Baby,

What a terrible night that was, that last night, somehow knowing in my heart you would be gone. Even then, even without knowing, I was already crying. Morning brought the terrible news. The tears rushed, and I died inside.

My dearest Baby, you made life during those days bearable. I will always be thankful to you for that. You were my one good thing. You were the joy of my unhappy days.

I love you, my baby. Even after all these years, even after my babies came and went, I hold you in my heart. Dearest Garpy.

Lovingly remembering my baby Boobie (June 18, 1991-July 21, 2005), who left this world nine years ago today

My dearest Boobie, my Bhoooobie, my Boobisie, my Babysie, my sanggol, my little boy, my dearest love.

One who hasn't looked into my heart will never know of the joy and consolation that you brought into my life...and of the pain and desolation that I felt when I lost you, when I had to let you go.

I'll say it over and over, my Baby, just as I think it and feel it over and over. I thought the best of my life was over. Then you came along, and you (with Almond and Vixen later on) gave me the best years of my life.  Life has changed so much since I lost you...you, the first in a wonderful era of love and companionship that lasted twenty years. How I wish I could have those days back.

My dearest Boobisie, I will love you always, and I will miss you all the days of my life. May we be reunited soon, if only in ashes.

My love to you always, my dearest Boobie, my Babysie.