Missing

I miss my babies. I miss my babies so much. I wish I could just be with them again.

Remembering my baby Garpy (Dec. 29, 1982-Aug. 10, 1991) with love, today, the anniversary of his death

My dearest Baby,

What a terrible night that was, that last night, somehow knowing in my heart you would be gone. Even then, even without knowing, I was already crying. Morning brought the terrible news. The tears rushed, and I died inside.

My dearest Baby, you made life during those days bearable. I will always be thankful to you for that. You were my one good thing. You were the joy of my unhappy days.

I love you, my baby. Even after all these years, even after my babies came and went, I hold you in my heart. Dearest Garpy.

Lovingly remembering my baby Boobie (June 18, 1991-July 21, 2005), who left this world nine years ago today

My dearest Boobie, my Bhoooobie, my Boobisie, my Babysie, my sanggol, my little boy, my dearest love.

One who hasn't looked into my heart will never know of the joy and consolation that you brought into my life...and of the pain and desolation that I felt when I lost you, when I had to let you go.

I'll say it over and over, my Baby, just as I think it and feel it over and over. I thought the best of my life was over. Then you came along, and you (with Almond and Vixen later on) gave me the best years of my life.  Life has changed so much since I lost you...you, the first in a wonderful era of love and companionship that lasted twenty years. How I wish I could have those days back.

My dearest Boobisie, I will love you always, and I will miss you all the days of my life. May we be reunited soon, if only in ashes.

My love to you always, my dearest Boobie, my Babysie.

Lovingly remembering my baby Boobie (June 18, 1991-July 21, 2005), born 23 years ago today

Happy birthday, my dearest baby.

You were my life. You still are, even after all these years that you've been gone.

You turned darkness into light. You made me smile when there was nothing to smile about. My dearest baby. You were the best of me, and life has never been the same since you left, since I let you go.

I love you, my Boobisie, my Bhooobie, my baby, and I will love you always. You ushered in the best years of my life. Thank you for the years you gave me.

I love you, my baby. I love you always.

Lovingly remembering my Come Baby Almond (Dec. 16, 1994-June 2, 2007), today, the anniversary of her death

My dearest Almond, my dearest Come Baby, my Mondy, my Alimondmond, my lovely baby.

I will love you always, and I will always treasure the years that we had together.

Those times you would follow me around the house.

Those times you greeted me when I came home.

Those times you demanded that I take you on my lap while I watched TV.

Just your being there, my Come Baby. Those were good years, those years with you.

I love you always. Always.