A wish in early morning

I must die this year. Please.

So missing my babies.

My dearest babies, my Boobie, my Almond, my Vixen.
I miss all of you so terribly.
With you, my Vixen, the pain is the greatest: it was only 16 months ago that I lost you, and I still think of that loss, the last days, your getting sick, my decision to let you.
Our time was too short, 14 years, 12 years, 13 years--all too short.
Life remains dark without you. The pain never ends.
I am so, so poor without you.
I long to be with all three of you again.
I will love you always, my babies, and I will always feel your absence.
My dearest Boobie, Almond, Vixen.